Paying Attention

Paying attention to all of the thoughts in my head
I told you I think that they're making me dead

Now I'm breathing out
Looking at all of the trees outside
Thinking about all the silver cars parked behind mine
Because they're gonna get towed this time
Then I'm left on the street
Waiting to get in my car at 10:15
But there's someone in front of me
They left me a note
Telling me to get out of their driveway

I tried not to let this ruin my day
But sometimes I cry so easily
There's too many people unhappy
Including me
Enough of that crap sweet little baby

Remember when we swam in the storm
My two legs wrapped around the yours
I guess I'm not alone
You told me to cherish the time on my own

Can't say that this will be any good
I've only just started to look outside
It's been hurting not to speak my authentic mind
But now I'm paying attention

I see you now
Being with you feels so freeing
I think the white skirt that I wore
The first time you saw me it,
Held some meaning

No, maybe I shouldn't have told you that
That feels a little too vulnerable, I can't
But I think, I want you to know
Everything about me
But do I know myself
I've been trying to figure it out

I don't hate myself
I've just been empty for a while
I guess you're not supposed to define yourself
By what you do or say

I know I've changed anyway
But maybe that's how I'll find myself
As I fall deep in your eyes

I don't mean to pry
But I love you and you're making me melt
Your arms holding me
Is nothing like I've felt, before
And I know we're just over the phone
But I can feel the warmth from your smile

You make me laugh like no one else
And I just wanna talk to you all the time
Don't worry, I'm getting happy in my own right

I do really love myself
I just needed to pay attention
That's right, just pay attention
That's right, just pay attention

Baby