Curious

I look at my life and all I've done
See myself as a man on the run
Denied my feelings too many times
Went further on though I've seen the signs

Curious in a weird way
Knowing deeply that I gotta pay

Taken everything from anywhere
What I've been longing for is just not there
Watch me moving like I'm not afraid to die
But then on my own I cry
From the highest high down to the ground
Do I always have to loose what I just found?

It's time to stop that and to break out
Thought is in my head, never said it loud
I try and stumble, I did before
Soon you'll find me down on the floor

Curious in a weird way
Heading for my last day

Smelled your interest long ago
And those were the things
That you should know
So take me with you, but if you fall
I wouldn't trust myself at all

From the highest high down to the ground
Do I always have to loose what I just found?