When I Still Felt That Way

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I have dreams of fire, dreams of ice
Gets me higher if I smoke it twice
I don't think I'll ever be fine
Jokes they fly, but they're flyin' 'round my mind
When I'm layin' up in my bed at night cryin'
They can go a long way
So you better just watch what you say
When you're talkin' 'bout me
I hate my mirror cause he shows me a guy
Who I don't wanna be
The glass is shatterin'
The line is getting clearer for all of you to see
How I feel doesn't matter
I'm supposed to be the man but it's hard
When you're up there looking down
Glancing on me
When I'm got a mental disease
I know the choreography, it's a dance
I scream but not audibly, I never had a chance
I go to talk and I get caught in a long, winding trance
Maybe get a deal with Puffy or Atlantic
Or maybe let my diabetes eat me, fuck a lancet

[Hook]
Wanna make a livin' off of rapping
But I said it too loud and got everybody laughing

[Verse 2]
I don't see any release, get evicted
I won't get any relief, address my thoughts from a distance
They called it a pipedream but fuck 'em
I see you in my dreams at night
But you're fucked up in weird positions
This has been in my head
Like the number for the suicide prevention
Thought I had it locked when they told me
Surrender my passion
I won't make it no matter my level of ambition

[Hook]
Wanna make a livin' off of rapping
But I said it too loud and got everybody laughing
Everybody's laughing