Apperception

I'm not the best
Well I ruin everything in the end
Pity myself
While being selfish to all of my friends

I fail
Again

I've never cared
For people this much in my life
So to see you hurt
Makes me feel like I'm rotting inside

Am I
Alive

And I really am grateful
So I'm sorry if this is distasteful

I'll close my eyes
Say it was just a dream, I'll pretend
Please help me out,
I don't wanna start over again
Let's be friends