Find Peace With Your Death

I've let go of a lot of shit, but there's certain things I'll never forgive
If it was up when we last spoke best believe that it still is
Streets taught me to never fully trust a friend or get caught up over no bitch
Brothers turn on brothers and so-called gangsters drop dimes in a pinch
I've put more work in by myself than I ever have with a click
14 when I busted my first pistol, I'll never forget that feeling when I felt that kick
No, other man can ever judge me for anything I may have committed
Murderous mind, I can't escape these thoughts of mine don't become another victim
Watch these women they'll try and set you up
Watch who you call your family too the close ones always know too much
A real OG told me if they aint helping you eat/ busting your nuts or filling your pockets then they ain't on the same team how could I not agree
I'm tired of opening up an empty fridge
And drinking this goddamn tapwater is starting to make me sick
Eating expired food kiz I'm starving and that's the last thing there is
I swear this can't be at there has to be more to life than this

Push the blade a little more I'm almost dead
But you won't live to see my end
All I need is one more nudge then I'll be off the ledge
Bits and pieces just left torn to shreds
I don't know if I'll ever be myself again
I've let it all go but it's hard to forget
Everything that's happening now or happened then
Life is constant war you'll find your peace with your death

Land of opportunity, my ass, why the hell are so many in debt
Kuz a goddamn 80 hour check don't pay that mother fucking rent
Working for pennies to fill the pockets of the ones who sit back with their feet up on a desk
They don't know shit about the struggle I don't think they'd last an hour living in our stress
Broken family no matter how much maintenance we could try we're not fixable
One day they're there the next they shut you out that is not unconditional
No time for idle hands I can't lay stagnant
I have to pull myself together and lift the rug to sweep away any loose fragments
My main loved ones passed on without seeing me reach my full potential
I gotta do this for me and Jr try and stop me all you want I'll never let you
The brains still functions a few minutes after death
So that's how long you'll have to think about your regret for fucking with me after I squeeze out to last breath
I rather no one out here ever love me because I honestly wouldn't know how to accept it
You can give me all the hate in the world kuz I use it like shoveling coal in the engine
I swear I will no longer be involved with any more self deception
I'll never settle until I'm all the way on so for now I'm remain and restless

Push the blade a little more I'm almost dead
But you won't live to see my end
All I need is one more nudge then I'll be off the ledge
Bits and pieces just left torn to shreds
I don't know if I'll ever be myself again
I've let it all go but it's hard to forget
Everything that's happening now or happened then
Life is constant war you'll find your peace with your death
Push the blade a little more I'm almost dead
But you won't live to see my end
All I need is one more nudge then I'll be off the ledge
Bits and pieces just left torn to shreds
I don't know if I'll ever be myself again
I've let it all go but it's hard to forget
Everything that's happening now or happened then
Life is constant war you'll find your peace with your death