Profit From The Pain

Dear Phyllis This A letter to you
Watchin ova me but I been hiding the truth
Day that I lost you felt like tying a noose
Wish that you were here but that ain't much of an excuse
Wish that you were here for all of my youth
I prolly wouldn't have did some the shit I did
I prolly wouldn't have said some the shit I said
You Prolly thought I'd be in jail or wind up dead
Wasn't too long for I got involved with the feds
Kicking in my door taking all of my bread
If you were around you'd tell me think with your head
My granny told me best got to profit from the pain
If you never take a loss then you'll never see a gain
If you put it on yourself then you'll have no one to blame
You got to be yourself you can't behind the shame
You can see the stars so that's where you should aim
Just stick to the plan n shit'll never be the same
N the day that I lost you that shit hit me like a train
Wish you were around to see the man that I became
Now I'm speaking to you ; through a picture frame
Made a promise to you That I'd never change
But I just don't feel same been staying in my lane poured the past down the drain
I been doin well guess I really can't complain
Been lookin in the mirror but I can't tell if it's in vain
My granny told me best got to profit from the pain
If you never take a loss then you'll never see a gain
If you put it on yourself then you'll have no one to blame
You got to be yourself you can't behind the shame
You can see the stars so that's where you should aim
Just stick to the plan n shit'll never be the same
N the day that I lost you that shit hit me like a train
Wish you were around to see the man that I became
Now I'm speaking to you through a picture frame
Made a promise to you That I'd never change
but I just don't feel same been staying in my lane poured the past down the drain
I been doin well guess I really can't complain
Been lookin in the mirror but I can't tell if it's in vain