Bittersweet Apology

Osiris, I'm gonna keep you smiling for the rest of your life
C'mon. You know you have my full support
I'm gonna be here for everything
I wanna be with you
I wanna hold YOU
Wait, I don't wanna waste your time
Osiris, I'm not who you think I am
(I'm sorry you had to see)
(Me tryna make a relationship out of fantasy)
(Wish my imagination could make you believe that you wanted me)
(I hope the lack of my presence makes every night for you, hard to sleep)
(Cause it's hard for me)
I'm sorry you had to see
Me tryna make a relationship out of fantasy
Wish my imagination could make you believe that you wanted me
I hope the lack of my presence makes every night for you, hard to sleep
Cause it's hard for me
I'm sorry you had to see
Me tryna be the person you made me out to be
I know that you just wanted my attention
Tip-toeing on ice
I felt the tension
Tightrope on my patience
My precious time wasted (oohwoah)
I'm sick of the fighting
I'm done with this hurting
spent every night tossing and turning
I went my whole life without learning
Just striving for perfect
But love never feels like it was worth it
I'm sorry you had to see
Me tryna make a relationship out of fantasy
Wish my imagination could make you believe that you wanted me
I hope the lack of my presence makes every night for you, hard to sleep
Cause it's hard for me
Why do I have to, think of you
All of these actions, I will do
All of my questions, they lead to you
Tearing me down
You're tearing me down
I'm sorry you to see
Me doing the most with the little bits that you were offering
I know in order to heal, eventually I'm gonna have to bleed (gonna have to bleed)
I'm doing my best, but my best isn't good enough, obviously
Why can't I fall asleep
I'm sorry you had to see (had to see)
Me tryna make a relationship out of fantasy
Wish my imagination could make you believe that you wanted me (that you wanted me)
I hope the lack of my presence makes every night for you, hard to sleep
Cause it's hard for me