The Rent’s Due

I was dropping off the money I owed you for the last month of rent
In  the apartment we made
You  were sleeping on the couch wearing nothing but a T-shirt I gave you
Made my way past the panic
Fought the normalcy
Locked  the door, walked away

Don’t  act like you don’t know what you were doing in the first place
Cause I can see right through it
There’s  a piece of you still living in my framework

I got in my car and I drove away
Thought of every single reason to return
But the arguments made a home in my brain
I  went back to my parents’ place
And the room that I grew up in
Just let the silence swallow me up

My friends are all concerned I’ll do something self-destructive and lose my way
Like going out alone
To the dark place that I was
With too much whiskey in my veins
And try to crash my car again
Making deals with the devil in my veins…

I’ve been walking around as a ghost