Happy Right Now?

How could I feel happy right now
My fucking stupid life just turned upside down
She's something, but I don't feel like it's something I could tie down
She wants me, but I think it's just a comfy place to lie down
She wants me, I don't want her back
How could I feel happy right now
I'm smoking and I'm drinking every night now
I'm soaking in it, I feel like I'm sinking and the lights out
The clock is ticking, I'm sickening of sipping, I'mma find out
I'm trying, but I wanna tap
Oh please, don't pretend that it feels so right
When you're sleeping by yourself all night
You could call me if it feels alright
Oh please don't pretend that it feels so nice
Getting clean in a real cold life
Getting mean, let in real old spite
How could I feel happy now
I could keep it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I can't speak it, can't believe it, if I let it go
Caught perceiving up and leaving if I keep it close
I could leave it, if I leave it
I could keep it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I can't speak it, can't believe it, if I let it go
Caught perceiving up and leaving if I keep it close
I could leave it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I'm not trying to listen to talking or lessons
Just send me to bed like you send me to heaven
I don't get no sleep, when I do it's a blessing
Up 24 hours like 7/11
I don't know the reason, I can't be confessing
I cope with the medicine, call it decompressing
I think I'm regressing, I think it's progressing, you think I'm addressing it
No
You just need the reason, get your peace and let it go
I just need the season, I believe in feeling low
Take your time with grieving, take it easy, take it slow
How could I feel happy
Now
I could keep it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I can't speak it, can't believe it, if I let it go
Caught perceiving up and leaving if I keep it close
I could leave it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I could keep it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I can't speak it, can't believe it, if I let it go
Caught perceiving up and leaving if I keep it close
I could leave it, if I leave it, I could need it though
Oh please, don't pretend that it feels so right
When you're sleeping by yourself all night
You could call me if it feels alright
Oh please don't pretend that it feels so nice
Getting clean in a real cold life
Getting mean, let in real old spite
How could I feel happy
Now
I could keep it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I can't speak it, can't believe it, if I let it go
Caught perceiving up and leaving if I keep it close
I could leave it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I could keep it, if I leave it, I could need it though
I can't speak it, can't believe it, if I let it go
Caught perceiving up and leaving if I keep it close
I could leave it, if I leave it, I could need it though
How could I feel happy
How could I feel happy