Calm and collected

Color of these stains
Look like cherry the way my bed sheet stained
Ima do it I'ma do it don't u dare think that I wouldn't
Calm and collected
As I load these shells Into my cane
Ima bout to do some shit that'll put em all to shame
Pull the trig I ain't got nothing to gain
Pull the trig I ain't got nothing to gain
Double barrel aimed at my ugly face
Watch as the buck blast out my brain
I got thoughts that are not normal to have
I crushed a xannie and put into my mouth
Wonderin what is wrong with myself
Sharpen the knife cut into myself
I be poking into bodies all day
And I ain't ate for 5 whole days
Off the tizolam and xannie
And I ain't ate for 5 whole days