it hurts, im trying

They think I'm a bad kid
I'm just trying so hard
No one looks that far, all they see is my scars
These days I wanna give up
But I've made it this far
And it tears me apart, and it tears me apart
I guess I don't know where to start
I guess I wonder where we are
I wish I could just ask you questions, but you left me, far apart
Its getting way too hard to get up out my bed, no more
I think that I just need my final rest, it'd be adored
And I don't look up when I speak
I cant look you in the eye
Cuz in my eyes there's water, will just fall and tears will dry
I'm losing hope, but its alright
I don't really feel alright
I just wrote my exit ticket, then I tried to say goodbye
The words cant come, I wonder why
I wonder if I'm gonna die
I wonder if you're all right
I wonder if you're all right

I wander in the night on my own
And I'm looking at the moon, and I hope it takes me home
And I'm so lost these days, need a bullet to my dome
I just might pull the trigger if you leave my ass alone
I'm in love with the reds, I'm in love with the drugs
You can never get me off em cuz I really fucked up
Pill bottle open and I need to reup
You know I am not happy unless I'm off these fucking drugs
Its getting to the point I've had enough
I'm running out of money, out of funds
I might just go and give up
I'm just high as shit, its kind of fun
I be in the back but not on purpose though
Every one forgets me, what's your purpose though?
I don't even wanna fucking know though
I don't even give a fuck hell no