Eyesoulated

I'm rockin shades cause you can see the pain in my eyes
I isolate cause by myself is when I feel aligned
I ain’t been alright
I hope somebody notice
Afraid to ask for help, when I’ve been at my lowest
The closest to me folded
So, I don’t trust too many
Cause at any moment, they’ll turn on you quickly
Those nights when I was homeless made me more ruthless
It was me, my bro, and of course the music
Ain't nobody know, I was bout to lose it
I was out my mind, I was going through it
I’ve been calling out, it ain't going through
Same thing, different day, this ain't nothing new
I put it in these songs
I’m tryna right my wrongs
If you hear this right now, please pick up the phone
At times I feel alone
And, I don’t know what to do
I’ve been tryna call a few
So much been hurting me
Currently, I'm on a workin spree
Wiping tears, facing fears, where my burdens be
I'm furthering, tryna find a way to this currency
Urgently, writing down this pain, tryna work some things
The pain in my stomach ain't from hunger
I've been down bad so long, it's time to come up
I manifested these blessings, I feel it coming
Late nights, early mornings, beat the sun up
Man I wonder,
I've been going through some changes
All these pages filled with anger
Minimize the rages
I envisioned something different from these situations
Cold heart, hot head, too many ultimatums
I've been meditating
I've been contemplating
I've been keeping to myself
I've been isolating
Love ain't meant for me, I think it’s time I face it
I’m breaking mentally, I swear I feel unstable
I’m in a matrix, can’t escape it
I need help, will somebody come and save me?
A day away from padded rooms and medication
Puffy eyes, heartaches, and irritation
I feel eyesoulated