Faith

[Verse 1]
Forgive this hate from me
But the faith in me has been escaping me
'Cause thou has forsaken me
How could you take from me my child's innocence
Watching him struggle daily is breaking me, it's making me
Question your motives, what's your intentions here?
I've prayed to you but I question if you've ever listened here
'Cause I'm in a position most men would bend from
Is this some sorta test to see if I'll give in or give up?
You sick fuck! Am I a toy to you?
Is my life a joke, is that what my boy's to you?
Just some experiment
Why put that cross on his back and ask him to carry it?
And as a parent it makes me feel despair so deep
There's nothing to compare it with
I'm 'bout this close to run up in your parishes
And your mosque and your churches and your synagogues
'Cause I'm at the point where I question if there is a God
I tried to talk to God, I tried to walk with God
You suppose to be a loving and an awesome God
Not a monster God, but I'm losing faith
My momma said to keep praying, I said Momma, it's too late
There is not enough prayer in this world that could let me forgive what you did to Isaiah
See, see, he can't speak
That means I can't sleep
Made this man weak, I just drink, sulk and weep
Still I fight though
I fight for his rights, for his dignity, for his future, for his life though
And despite of you and despite of me
But just know I always think about what his life could be
If you hadn't placed this burden on this beautiful person
And this Bourbon isn't working when I'm hurtin'
I'm so over it, I'm so cold to this
You can't imagine the size of the boulder where my shoulder sits
I'm not asking for pity or forgiveness either
I'm asking for you to fix this or just fuckin' leave us
In the meantime I be on this long road
Signed, yours truly, a Lost Cauze and a lost soul