Evening. Melancholy I

Three winters past, I went to see the sun
Crash beyond the waters and into the void
I drove all night though the storm to be alone
With my thoughts in the presence of
Our long lost distant God who's turned his back on us
We're all falling without understanding
The gravity of our collected failures and
All our broken promises

With poison in my veins, I thought of past regrets
And all the times I could never make you happy
Just one more hit to tear me away
From your tears, I can't bare this, I'm sorry
My reflection stares back at me from the cold black water
And, in my eyes, the light's long gone

The once calm sea began to boil
With all the things I left unsaid
My weak hands tremble at the thought
Of all the times I failed myself
I feel the ground shake with my weight
I feel the water rushing through my lungs

Through my heart, through my heart
I can feel the resounding sound of self-defeat
Waves, take me now and wash me away
To a shore where I can find eternal rest