Suffering

I take too much of everything
Straight in to my blood and it's never enough
So far ahead of myself
Wrapped up in these sheets I'm alone without love
We could've been soft
We could've just laughed and talked about the boring stuff
Instead of being so hard
And now I've lost everything I ever had

I don't want you to be suffering
I don't want you to be suffering
How could I ever hurt you?
How could I ever hate you?
And sometimes I wish I was someone else
Somebody helping you love yourself
How could I ever change you?
How could I ever fail you?

We shut down communication lines
I closed all of the windows
Stayed awake at night
Left your coins by the bedside light
To remind me of us spending all our time

Do you think of me at all?
Those mornings we'd laugh until we cried a thousand times
Is it too late to call?
Are we about to lose everything we ever had?

But I don't want you to be suffering
I don't want you to be suffering
How could I ever hurt you?
How could I ever hate you?
Sometimes I wish I was someone else
Somebody helping you love your self
How could I ever change you?
How could I ever fail you?

All this trouble inside of us
Tried to break us and keep us up in the night, in the night
All this trouble inside of us
Is it too late to call you up in the night, in the night?

But I don't want you to be suffering
I don't want you to be suffering
How could I ever hurt you?
How could I ever hate you?
Sometimes I wish I was someone else
Somebody helping you love your self
How could I ever change you?
How could I ever fail you?
But I don't want you to be suffering