every (fucking) time

I can't help but feel alone
In this big room I feel so small
And I wouldn't lie to you tonight
Cause I'm so used to feel my heart subside
And all these walls can't keep inside
All of the words that I still write
About our love's remains, just ash
I guess we went too fast, you left my body crushed
I wonder now if you even know me
If you knew that I was so in love with you
The way you took advantage of me selfishly
However I still came back to you

All the times I laid by your side
Now useless, you never cared but I
I shouldn't keep wanting you
I can't help it but do
Found my peace in every broken piece of mine
Wish I knew it from the start
But you still hurt me every time

That night I knew you drank too much (Drank too much)
And was so scared that you'd get mad (Mad)
I should've seen the flags but I was out didn't think much
Why did I leave with you?
I wonder now if you even know me
If you knew that I was so in love with you
I saw it in your eyes, your will to leave
You always put yourself first, never me

All the times I laid by your side
Now useless, you never cared but I
I shouldn't keep wanting you
I can't help it but do
Found my peace in every broken piece of mine
I wish I knew I'd hurt this much
Would've never loved you back

I was only nineteen when I broke
You left me on the concrete and ran home
Then why did I trust you?
Tried to open my eyes, lights red and blue
Wish I didn't give you every piece of mine
I'm such a mess and I come back to you
Every (fucking) time