Dear Joan

Dear Joan
I've almost forgotten the pain in the window
The blue dress in the doorway
Dear Joan
Help me remember the face I forget
And the traps that I've sprung

I guess I've grown tired
It's just what's expected of me
To tear your heart
From the inside to the outside
You know I was wired
I just couldn't help it
The hundred thousand times
I hurt you

Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan

Dear Joan
Your face has brightness
That I've never seen
In the years that I've known you
Dear Joan
I'll pick up the pieces
But some traveled so far
They flew when I kicked them
Across the room

I know you believed when I said it was over
You stood by me patiently waiting and brooding
So deeply in love
With every face I've shown

Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan

Once I forget
Twice I'm a fool
Three times I wrap my hands around your neck
While you're sleeping

Dear Joan
Don't walk out the doorway
Because if you did
I believe I could honestly kill you

Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan