Holdin' On

I was young, I'd seen it all
A cemetery in the middle of a super mall
I went to school, I never learned
How it feels, how everything you love can burn
And it never stops, it's all I got
And I never know when to turn
Like a merry-go-round, it all comes around again

And I don't know why I'm here
I don't know where I'll go
If I don't give it time, how can this garden grow?
I don't know what I've lost and I don't know where to get it back
But I'm holdin' on
Yes, I'm holdin' on for as long as I can

I moved away, I left the band
I saw it coming, it was written on the back of my hand
And every day, I could feel something missing
I went home to get a record deal
And my mother said, "You're theirs to your dead,
To them, it's just another meal."
Now I'm fat with regret, I'm placing my bet on me

And I don't know why I'm here
I don't know where I'll go
If I don't give it time, how can this garden grow?
I don't know what I've lost and I don't know where to get it back
But I'm holdin' on
Yes, I'm holdin' on for as long as I can

It's not over yet, no, it's not even close
My heart is younger, stronger than 100 cowards in a row
And all my curiosity will keep me asking, "What went wrong?"
When it's all done, when it's gone,
No, it won't be long 'til I'm traveling back in time
To a place when I was mine

I don't know why I'm here
I don't know where I'll go
If I don't give it time, how can this garden grow?
I don't know what I've lost and I don't know where to get it back
But I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm holdin' on for as long as I can