818 interlude

All the people I've loved
Loved the bottle more
Last was him my senior year
And the ones that came before
Hiding under my covers
Hoping he don't come in
Cause I'll have to listen to things he doesn't mean But they sink in
Yeah they sink in
Like teeth into an apple but they aren't crisp or clean Sometimes things aren't as good as they seem
They're dirty and aggressive
I am obsessive why can't i just tell him to leave Woah
Woah, woah, yeah
Moments I never thought I'd have to live through My best friend on the floor i'm so fuckin' scared to Check on her pulse the police said i had to Alcohol swimming through the air, I smell you I smell you
I'm crying, I'm shaking
I'm calling, no answer
That drive to her house I swear was slow as cancer Killing me it usually takes ten minutes
How long's it been? Fuck, I really am in this
I've gotten used to flying alone
Travel so much, don't know what is my home My family are passengers on these planes Closer than my own blood, it's insane
And this year promised to be good to me So far, it's been hard
I tell myself that it's worth it
Will it be worth it?
I'm scared that it won't be worth it
I'm scared that I won't be worth it