Quiero olvidar

I watched the movie "el oscuro objeto del deseo" and I laughed Uncontrollably during some parts, but everything else reminded me of Burning except I´m a girl?
It reminded me of what I have to do to survive How not to hurt from words Like that, form ideas like that, how not to hurt when I can´t stop thinking... But I´m right here cold and alone I don´t desire to move from this winter Ground although I could... nowhere to leave my paranoia behind I say that I Know you don´t love me but who knows I could havе been moving

But I can´t..