Live And Learn

Disappear (ghost)

My mind spills to thrills and fills the void, kills the noise
You know the game build, destroy, Tetris
Before you turn the phone off but then the phone dies
There's no break for a black guy
Blacklisted before they even wrote shit
Mad gifted before we even spoke the word
In the beginnin', it was just the word
And the word was with God and the word is Allah (ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)
Voilà but it ain't magic, niggas die but it ain't tragic
It's more natural, new birth, what if heaven is the new Earth?
What if God is a bluebird, that can't fly because it knows itself as the sky?
I used to see rain as the proof I can cry with no fear
But now I gotta hide my own tears so I don't seem weak (ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)
I don't even want to see me 'cause I don't know that nigga
I don't owe that nigga, to tell the truth there's somethin' you could show that nigga
That's why I love you because I know who you are
That's why I look at you like I seen you before
I recognize you from a hole in the wall (ooh ooh ooh)
That I punched in the wall 'cause I'm so pissed off (ooh ooh ooh ooh)
I meditate and try to calm myself
I know anger only harm myself (ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)
False alarm myself, so many books I read to warn myself
I want more myself, look in the mirror and I scorn myself
Who am I? And am I really even here?
I think it's time for me to disappear

'Cause I've been livin' way too long in the right or the wrong
I'm as small as a fly with the shit that I'm on
So get goin', get lost, I don't wanna be found
You won't see me if you lookin' around
'Cause I've been livin' way too long in the right or the wrong (ooh ooh ooh)
I'm as small as a fly with the shit that I'm on (ooh ooh ooh ooh)
So get, going get lost
I don't want to be found (ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)
You won't see me if you lookin' around

Feel my rain, feel my pain, feel my force
Walk in my flame, it will change you, of course
Don't be scared, I'll be there where you are
You don't know, it's ok where you go

Yesterday I saw the endin' of the end
And I'm in it again
Everything is on spin, I'm just caught in the wind
Protectless, breathless, stress less
The high got the Faye kinda restless
Second guessin' intent directions
I get a kick out the irony of my blessings
Humorous in life, enormous as my sacrifice so it seems (ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)
Then again Salo ain't a thing
But a dollar and a dream and a model for the team
Or a slogan for the soul, just so all my niggas know
God Body, bodied in this colded life
How you livin'? You're just another soldier, right?
What I'm fightin' for don't even know what I'm writin' for (ooh ooh ooh)
Man this ain't even real life no more (ooh ooh ooh ooh)
I'm on the edge and I ain't got nothin' but a song (ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)
I'm lucky if the birds sing along

'Cause I've been livin' way too long in the right or the wrong
I'm as small as a fly with the shit that I'm on
So get goin', get lost, I don't wanna be found
You won't see me if you lookin' around
'Cause I've been livin' way too long in the right or the wrong (ooh ooh ooh)
I'm as small as a fly with the shit that I'm on (ooh ooh ooh ooh)
So get, going get lost
I don't want to be found (ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)
You won't see me if you lookin' around

Feel my rain (my rain), feel my pain, feel my force
Walk in my flame (hey high), it will change you, of course
Don't be scared, I'll be there where you are
You don't know, (it's ok) it's ok where you go