Numb (Trying to Hold It Together)

I'm not okay
But I have to be
'Cause life's too crazy
It won't stop for me
I can't take a mental health day
When I've got many things today
My mind's ablaze with constant thoughts
And everyone's expecting me to fall apart
I don't really know what to do
When the past 3 years were with you

I'm numb
From the sleepless nights
And the dreams that now have left me
I'm numb
From the memories
And the way things used to be
And all the tears that I had have run out
And silences have never felt so loud
I'm numb

The pain is real
But I will heal
I don't really know
How I'm supposed to feel
There are too many ups and downs
I'm walking on shells with no sound
My friends are great
Blowing up my phone
I kinda want to just be left alone
I'm sorry but not sorry
I'm not really looking to party

I'm numb
From the sleepless nights
And the dreams that now have left me
I'm numb
From the memories
And the way things used to be
And all the tears that I had have run out
And silences have never felt so loud
I'm numb

(Man, I really wish I could sleep)
(Oh no, what did I forget to do again?)
(There's this and that)
(There's too much going on)
(I just want to eat ice cream and watch Netflix)
(I'm just)

I'm numb
From the sleepless nights
And the dreams that now have left me
I'm numb
From the memories
And the way things used to be
And all the tears that I had have run out
And silences have never felt so loud
I'm numb

(Yep, very numb)
(A pinch here, a pinch there)
(I still feel nothing)
(I wonder why?)