is this love real?

I know it's hard to cope
Feeling like this is harder when each day goes
It's been a while since I've been myself
I know I'm better off when I'm alone
I've convinced myself that home would be the place where I'd be fine
But it turns out home is the only place where I just can't survive
I'm tired of living in a place
Where I can't be trusted living in a place
Where my head is corrupted
I just feel like we, we can't be focused
And it hurts when we can't get along, and I always shed tears
I know I don't belong
And you've made that quite clear
When you say I am loved
That's really hard to hear
Is this love real?
Feeling hopeless
It's hard to escape
Every time that I leave I'm happy to be away
I know that I just can't stay
In a place that feels so gray
It's sad to say
That I'm tired of living in a place
Where I can't be trusted living in a place
Where my head is corrupted
I just feel like we, we can't be focused
And it hurts when we can't get along, and I always shed tears
I know I don't belong
And you've made that quite clear
When you say I am loved
That's really hard to hear
Is this love real?