Awakenings

When we first met, the well was dry
A long dark winter passed us by
With shooting starts and hopeful hearts
Our worlds collide
So we rushed to fill each other in
Quick to feed our hungry hopes
A feast of our affections, we were born anew

Oh, whoa

With open eyes, we tried to make it work
And for a while the magic took
But cracks to begin to show as soon as things got hard
Like paper walls, our feelings tore
We threw our backs against the door
Unwilling to bear witness to the other side

Oh, the games we play to hide
The tangled dread inside
The fear that we are going nowhere fast
We point the finger out, the anger gets so loud
It drowns out all the sorrow
At least until tomorrow, what then?

I took a good hard look at how I loved
Years I squandered, falling fast
For any boy who'd have me was so insecure
Lie awake alone at night
Full of loathing, compromised
And wondering, how the hell did I end up like this?

Oh, the tears of rage I cried
When nowhere could I find
An answer that made any kind of sense to me
I point the finger out, the anger gets so loud
It drowns out all the sorrow
At least until tomorrow

Oh, I wanna learn, I wanna know
Will our history crush us or can we let it go?
I'm not the girl I was but what have I become?
I'm not so willing anymore to bend
Still pleasing and conceding
But I'm not gonna lose myself again