I’m Not

I guess it's over now
Things are back to normal somehow I
I've learned to shut it out
No room for doubt

I'm not feelin' down
My whole world is just upside down
I'm not feelin' at all

Sometimes I want to run
Mind is chaos body's numb
I have to close my mouth
In case the truth comes out

Don't speak, don't feel
Don't breathe and don't be deciding
Just swallow the knifes
Infect life with lies that you hide
That's how you survive

Smoke my last cigarette
I don't want to kill myself yet
I throw my voice away
What's it gonna say - it says