Anxxiety

my anxiety is not helping me forget you
but i guess i really don't want to
and while i'm trying to figure out
what i should text you
have to remind myself that i already lost you
i know sobriety would probably be a good call
been breaking down my body like it's drywall
but you've been flying through my memory
like a baseball
so i've been running through what i would say
if you called

i never meant to hurt you
i just had alot i had to go through
had alot of shit i probably should have told you
like how beautiful you are
and that i love you
switching up the layout of my bedroom
so i don't have to wake up in the spot we used to
my anxiety is not helping me forget you
but i guess i really don't want to

rolled up in an uber to your spot the other night
left my crew back on the tour to try
and make this shit alright
i showed up at your door i had my bag and i was begging
and i know that you weren't having none of it
i understand it
i certainly do not deserve another ucking second
but when you hit me up and said we're done
my plane already landed
trying to be a man and say goodbye to you no crying
but i fucking miss you
there ain't no point in lying
god damn

i never meant to hurt you
i just had alot i had to go through
had alot of shit i probably should have told you
like how beautiful you are
and that i love you
switching up the layout of my bedroom
so i don't have to wake up in the spot we used to
my anxiety is not helping me forget you
but i guess i really don't want to

it's been a war making peace with my ego
just when i think that i'm free though
he got something up his sleeve though
he ain't ever letting me go
trying to murder my ego
just when i think that i'm free though
he fashions me a new halo
he ain't ever letting me go

he ain't ever letting me go.