Can't Be Myself

The thoughts are driving me crazy
It makes me mad that I can't be myself
I just need a little bit to get by
Something small to take the edge off
But now I'm trapped by it it'll never let me go
Surrender and give in it wants to take control
It wants to abuse me tear me down and break me
Temptation won't go away I want to break free

I know this won't last forever
It makes me sad that I'll have to come down
I never want to do it again
I'm just too scared to face it alone
It's right behind me it likes to follow me down
It's getting closer it wants to swallow me whole
Left me to waste and rot from the inside
Just one more time the decisions not mine

It's right behind me it's going to find me
It's going to get me when I'm looking down and I won't see it coming no
It wants to chain me it wants to break me
It wants everything that I own and to feast on my soul
It's right behind me it's going to find me
It's going to get me when I'm looking down upon myself
I'm wearing too thin I'm losing control I'm going out of my mind
But this is only the beginning now

It's right behind me it's going to find me
It's going to get me when I'm looking down and I won't see it coming no
It wants to chain me it wants to break me
It wants everything that I own and to feast on my soul
It's right behind me it's going to find me
It's going to get me when I'm looking down upon myself
I'm wearing too thin I'm losing control I'm going out of my mind
But this is only the beginning now

Quit begging for change this is your life
I am the gun and you are the knife
Listen to me I'm your only advice
Get on your knees prepare your sacrifice
You took me in to make yourself whole
Like you I to want so much more
You're not enough I want your soul