Backstabbed

Maybe if I die I’ll turn into a goat

[Hook: Mikayla Hamilton]
I thought we could figure this out
But then you go and you calm me down

[Verse 1: Shaft]
It’s funny how you y’all left me for dead
I’m been stuck in my head can’t get out of my bed
So I’m closer to living my dreams
I know that everything’s not what it seems
Overthinking yeah that’s typical me
Asking what’s wrong, I don’t know what they mean
Feels like I’m losing my grip and my hype
I know that nothing happens overnight
Hate being cold but it feels so right
If you shot me down I would drip out ice
That’s a bar and half worth 25 to life
Thought about ending it the other night
With Lucy my grandma standing in the light
How could I ever reach the height of favorites
Without any patience
With more dedication than anyone waiting
To hop in the action
“You think you gonna blow up with all of this rapping?”
Look, I don’t know but we’ll see what happens
Can’t trust my circle cause people backstabbing
Huh growing up is really the assassin
My mouth wired shut from the writers block
Like cottage crash, man this shit from love stuck in the past
I’ve had enough, will I ever last?
Or will I watch my whole world go and collapse?

[Hook: Mikayla Hamilton]
I thought we could figure this out
But then you go and you calm me down
Remember when you said you’d always be around
Told me that you’d forever hold me down
Guess we’ll never figure this out

[Verse 2: Shaft]
Remember mom and dad would fight every day
Thought that shit was normal, what can I say
Each fight getting more worse than the last
Don’t want my future to be like my past
Maybe that’s why I always sound violent
Coming from a home that felt like a riot
I don’t make my music just so you can buy it
I make it so you can feel my lyrics, my spirit, my soul
There’s no telling how far I would go just to get to the top
Scared I’ll be stuck at the bottom and left here to rot
So I’ve been switching my plot
Back all hunch, from the weight of my shoulders
Really sick of feeling dead even when I am sober
Life is a high with no way to closure
You wanted the real now the wait is over
And I’ve been to hell and back one too many times
One too many friends told one too many lies
And it took too long for me to realize
That they were never really on my side
And I hate that cause I love them
But I guess now it’s fuck them
Can’t wake ‘em up, they sleeping
They need me, I don’t need them

[Hook: Mikayla Hamilton]
I thought we could figure this out
But then you go and you calm me down
Remember when you said you’d always be around
Told me that you’d forever hold me down
Guess we’ll never figure this out