Bad Days

All I feel is pain
I don't feel other emotions on my brain
Every fucking day feeling like the same thing
Got me stressing, wondering if it gon change
Smoking Mary Jane this my affordable escape
Pop another roll one like how much can I take
Snakes in my grass and all I got me is a rake
Tryna get this money in but serpents take away
Bitch I'm royalty like James
I just gotta break away
Got too much pain in my heart
I lay awake spacing out, retracing tears me apart
No sleeping pills though. I'd rather be awake to face my demons
When you in the dark for long it gets easy for you to see shit
They tell me that I'm great but why is it I'm feeling decent
Don't you tell me my shit hot if you not gonna like my recent
Earthquake, too many fakes caught in my creases
This some shit I'll never cease til my body gotta stop breathing
Anger in my body
I can';t deal with shawty
Frustration only growing like every time that bitch talking
And I'm only here to fuck; it get annoying when she call me
Ate my kids call me daddy she want me to make her mommy
Fucking with a young buck you Ain't gon settle me down
These women letting me down
So much my heart can't be found
Preaching hate instead of love what else been there for me now
Smoking pound after pound
Been living life on a cloud
I ain't gon lie
Money on my mind I gotta make
I ain't gon lie I got some lives I really wanna take
I ain't gon lie shawty I just really wan't your heart to break
Gave my own a couple times I'll never make that same mistake
I wasn't made this way
Certain circumstances made me change
Catching shade from some fakes. No heart to say it to my face
Had to drop my best friend shit still fucks with me today
But he a snake now and Brodie had to put him in his place
You been replaced
Are you with the gang till you die
This ever was a light statement we would whisper on the side
Would you really pull a trigger. Make an op lose his mind
Would you take one for your brother even if it meant for life
Shit get hectic
Mama knows I'm smart but that don't help her when she stressing
People catching charges least your baby not no felon
Wait a second. I can tell you second guessing
If I die young I pray you get left with my message
Dreaming too big and so vivid that I felt shit
Jugging and finessing be ready for what you dealt with
Cheese I need it spreadable that heater make it melt quick
No I'm not no shooter but got goonies on the kill switch
Not even high but I'm numb
Hiding trauma from my mama scared of what I'll become
Hoops turn to bullet holes and that basketball to a gun
With a nine like I'm golfing. Hit you that's a hole in one
I'm up to sum
Yea I'm up to something
Used to work at mickey d's
Time to make em love it
Shawty wanna fuck with me
Made sure she was cumming
But that bitch conceited she thinking she got me cuffed quick
Tough shit when
I just wanted a good time
She told me you better be ready for me when you get inside
Pussy dripping, soaking on me. Watch me hit go slip n' slide
Shawty ain't believe me when I told her this my first time
On some Dark shit
Too full of yourself gon get a bitch curbed quick
Nice gon get you nowhere yea I had to learn quick
Saw me back before and now she calling me a dick
But I'm so sick of being used I guess it gon be what it is
And I don't need no shawty
Came a long way by myself no I don't need nobody
As long as I'm in the flesh at least I got somebody
Me and myself I got me
It's only me that can stop me
Lately this pain
It's all I been feeling weighing heavy on my brain
Been like two years and I Ain't seen a bit of change
I been sitting watching people round me start to fade
On the low throwing shade
Praying hoping I don't cave
And I still don't need no shawty
I've come a long way by myself no I don't need nobody
As long as I feel me bleeding I still got somebody
Me and myself I got me
It's only me that can stop me