Up From Here

You know I'm happy
Know I'm good
You know I'm grateful
But there's some things I want to hear
If you'd just say so
I'll write it down and let it out
Just like I'm supposed to but
There's some things I'd love to know
On days I fall through
Through the dark
Through cracks
When I can't see
When I look back
And even when I think it's clear
I ask what's up from here
Cause what is up from here

If I'm honest
I can't really tell you why
But the voice inside my head
Told me it's not my time
And If you want to
I could tell you how I feel
But you'll run away
When I say something so surreal
Every moment
Frozen time
And when I cry
You're on my mind
And even then I think it's clear
I ask what's up from here
Cause what is up from here

Yeah it's the only thing replaying on my mind
Since March of 1999
Who am I to say you're wrong
Why do I feel I don't belong
When they leave
I don't move on
At least I try and write my songs
They can't understand how long it took
To love myself
To like my looks
So don't patronize me now
Cause I know you're all scared of how It all goes down
Cause what is up from here