The View From Halfway Down

Stranded in this bed
My eyes don't wanna open, see the light of day
But routine carries on
The routine carries on
On and on, away
Of all the end conditions that I can conceive
The ones in which I had an easy time are nonexistent
So afflicted
The jury's out, it's unanimously over

It's too much
Wasn't made for this world
Set up to hurt
Only in dreams can I get a taste
Of a life that doesn't hold me down
In my heart there's a place where I still believe
In my heart there's a place where I still believe

By the time eternal slumber makes me its host
Will I have won the battle?
Is that a choice I can make?
Will there ever be another day like that one in the park
When I didn't feel so different?
Outsider, excluded

"The weak breeze whispers nothing
The water screams sublime
His feet shift, teeter-totter
Deep breaths, stand back, it's time
Toes untouch the overpass
Soon he's water-bound
Eyes locked shut but peek to see
The view from halfway down"

I read the words slowly, the image forming in my mind
Brought out my deepest fears and made me see them through new eyes

It's too much
Wasn't made for this world
Set up to hurt
Only in dreams can I get a taste
Of a life that doesn't hold me down
In my heart there's a place where I still believe
In my heart there's a place where I still believe

Of all the end conditions set out before me
The ones in which I cherished time appeal the least
The ones that bring it to an end could bring relief
But that's a lie, I don't wanna die
I just need a reprieve
I just need a reprieve

It's too much
Wasn't made for this world
Set up to hurt
Only in dreams can I get a taste of a life that doesn't hold me down
In my heart there's a place where I still believe
In my heart there's a place where I believe
And I'll try to hold on