Precursor

I used to believe in something
And something believed in me
But now I see I forced myself
'Cause believing in nothing is scary
Now there's nothing left to lose
And we've been wearied and refused
I am an unbelieving wreck
Will you please lift me by my neck?
How do I turn this into something I believe
When it's something I've been told
And something I've been taught?
How do I turn this into something that I need?
When I'm lavishly controlled
And someone that I'm not
Make me believe
Make me believe
Make me believe
Make me believe
Joy and suffering, good and evil
Breathing and growing and life
It's all just a fluke, means nothing to me
And maybe nothing is alright
To give up my life to hold on to hope
To forfeit all of me
To believe that something must be true
And that truth will set us free
How do I turn this into something I believe
When it's something I've been told
And something I've been taught?
How do I turn this into something that I need?
When I'm lavishly controlled
And someone that I'm not
Believing in love, believing in hope
Surrendering all of my will
Believing in nothing is scary
Believing in something is scarier still
Believing in love, believing in hope
Surrendering all of my will
Believing in nothing is scary
Believing in something is scarier still