The Fear Of God

Dear God, why should I think You're good
In a world that's falling apart?
The flags and lies, picket signs raised high
The endless enveloping dark
Now here we sit, drifting further from You
Two thousand years on their way out
Now here I am as I've grown to know You
Still haunted by my fears and my doubts
Just a man, just a vapor, just a waste of Your space
All the good that I've done is in spite of myself
I'm not sure that I can look You in your face
When I finally set foot in Your kingdom
Dear God, what went wrong?
We hate ourselves, we hate our brother
We so desperately want to find our way
And all You say is, "Love one another"
And little babies starve to death
Emaciated, out of breath
Unfaithful wives make vows untrue
Husbands beat them black and blue
Junkies vomit in the streets
Writhing twitching in their skin
Sell themselves to die some more
Rotting from the outside in
Parents steal the innocence
From their children, scared and shaking
Drink away the guilt at night
Brings quiet to the endless aching
And evil men boast on TV
Swimming in a sea of wealth
While misery beds honest men
And lonely people kill themselves
And everyone cries out your name
As the world is raped by selfishness
And no one knows the way to heaven
We only know the emptiness
And the storm, it rages in my heart
And the endless empty roars in my ears
My world is coming all apart
I've no strength left to dry my tears
And through it all I hear Your voice
Breaking my heart, breaking my will
Calms the storm inside my soul
As You whisper, "Peace, be still"
You place Your hands around my heart
You quiet the emptiness in me
A King that kneels, a God made a servant
You set the captives free
You wait for me, a wretch of a man
No record of wrongs do You keep
You are comfort when I mourn
You are strength when I am weak
Jesus Christ, the King of kings
Though we ache, though we cry, never break, never die
We sing of His great love again and again
And His love reigns forever and forevermore
Forever and ever, Amen