Imposter

I'm an imposter
I say that I'm pretty
Until I feel it
Is it dishonest
Faking a feeling
I don't believe in

Constantly nauseous
I spent every evening
Trusted completely
Is that what you wanted
Me thinking I'm fearless
When really I wasn't

I don't want to spend my life
In front of a mirror
Tearing myself apart
So sick of the nights
I wasted time falling apart
I don't want to be that one
Always numb to the feeling
Thought I'd be fine by now
It's not like I haven't tried
Don't mind me
I'm just falling apart

Guess I'm an imposter
I act like I'm healed
But I'm hardly breathing
So who makes that call
Would someone be honest
I thought I was pretty
He said that I wasn't

I don't want to spend my life
In front of a mirror
Tearing myself apart
So sick of the nights
I wasted time falling apart
I don't want to be that one
Always numb to the feeling
Thought I'd be fine by now
It's not like I haven't tried
Don't mind me
I'm just falling apart

It's not pretty
(Would you think I was pretty?)
How I see it (I'm an imposter)
I'm an imposter (but you don't see)
It's speaking volumes now

I don't want to spend my life
In front of a mirror
Tearing myself apart
So sick of the nights
I wasted time falling apart
I don't want to be that one
Always numb to the feeling
Thought I'd be fine by now
It's not like I haven't tried
Don't mind me
I'm just falling apart