WHY!

3 days later and I've never felt more lost
Sinking deep and I'm forgetting what it all cost
All my footprints have been mixed up in my brain, yeah
I don't know which ones were ancient or just made, yeah
The ones leading me to abyss are looking kinda new
Scaring me, cause I know that trail would lead me to truth
Nothings changed, I'm still drained
Feeling like it's all been staged
What if it ends the same
What if I'm headed to my grave
But these prints can be decieiving
I thought I was holding all the cards but facts is I've been cheating
I've been telling them I stay winning
Knowing I can't stay swimming
Like I act, know the script, inside a play finna die
They don't know what's been going inside
See me build a sandcastle, bury me alive
Like that feeling on your toes when you first stepping outside
That's how I feel when I first start sharing out my mind, uh
Out my mind, uh
I'm in the front seat finally on grind, uh
But I'm driving and I'm ignoring the signs, uh
So I fail to keep together like a binder
Uh, running out of gas and I'm failing, stay in class
In the 90th minute and I can't catch a pass
So when the game is over, I just gotta take a loss
Make my own way home, see your house at the cross, wonder
Wonder if I'm ever staying in your mind, I've been
Thinking if you ever gonna stay at mine, I've been
Worrying I saw you for the last time, I keep
Asking why girl, asking why, I've been
Wonder if I'm ever staying in your mind, I've been
Thinking if you ever gonna stay at mine, I've been
Worrying I saw you for the last time, I keep
Asking why girl, asking why, I've been
Finding solace in the people that I've met, I've been
Looking back and I am feeling like a vet, I've been
In the past, tryna turn it back, make it change
Standing in the bus stop since then, bound in chains
Never left that place, my home is memory
When I sleep I go back, my safe space, my treasury
Tossing and turning when I'm crying in my dreams
Boxing and rolling with myself from my teens
But I'm still in them, still the same
The storm hasn't finished
But the weather never switches and the wounds stay stitched
I've been tryna cover up, keep my insides intact
But my stomach bubble up like wind tides, impact
Overfilled your bucket of what you can handle
Raising up the ratings so you turn the channel
Feeling third class, guess that make me fragile
One more person drop me and I think I'm shambles
Believe I can change, pick up the piece and I'm back in the range
Shoot off the dome, war in my head, fight for my home
We overrun, here comes the cloud
My army is dead, surrender, heads bowed
Voices get loud and I think I am finished
Strength keeps failing and my will has diminished
But when I think it's all over
Look to the sky and I think I find closure
Knowing that you're somewhere lighting up life, solar
Makes me remember, take mines a little slower
I wonder
Wonder if I'm ever staying in your mind, I've been
Thinking if you ever gonna stay at mine, I've been
Worrying I saw you for the last time, I keep
Asking why girl, asking why, I've been
Wonder if I'm ever staying in your mind, I've been
Thinking if you ever gonna stay at mine, I've been
Worrying I saw you for the last time, I keep
Asking why girl, asking why, I've been
Wonder if I'm ever staying in your mind, I've been
Thinking if you ever gonna stay at mine, I've been
Worrying I saw you for the last time, I keep
Asking why girl, asking why, I've been
Wonder if I'm ever staying in your mind, I've been
Thinking if you ever gonna stay at mine, I've been
Worrying I saw you for the last time, I keep
Asking why girl, asking why, I've been