Someone's last word

I was just a child
And my thoughts were suicidal
Broke ass sad baby
This is what i've died for
Sorry mom i don't understand what are you smiling for
And sorry if your son can't resist this world anymore
Tried so hard to understand what's wrong with me
Cried the shit out of me, still don't know who i'm gonna be
And when my time will come, please keep breathing
This is what i want, i'm happier like this
I've tried so hard to look cheery for you
Hoping that you'd have never figured it out, sorry ma
In my head you're okay with dad on the sofa
I'll always picture that, even resting in this graveyard
And if dad will ever say that he did something wrong
Say to him that he was the one who gave me strenght & hope
And if you'll ever think that this could be your fault
Please don't, i was just not made for this world

This world
This world
I was just not made for this world
This world
This world
I was just...
This world
This world
I was just not made for this world
This world
This world
I was just...

I remember myself fallin
Almost touching a blind spot
You were always there
Stop me before ground does
I remember myself fallin
Almost touching a blind spot
You were always there
Stop me before ground does
I remember myself fallin
Almost touching a blind spot
You were always there
Stop me before ground does
I remember myself fallin
Almost touching a blind spot
You were always there
Stop me before ground does

Sorry mom!