Unbalanced

Sometimes I feel like you going understand if I leave
Sometimes I close my eyes when it get hard for me to see
I know it sound backwards girl but I'm just being me
I can’t get you out my head I got to push you from my reach
Cause sometimes I might just take it way too far with no regrets
I seen way too many bodies bullets in they neck and chest
I was taught to shoot it first, ain't trying to figure out what's next
I can’t let my mother be the one to lay me down to rest

My life been gettin' harder cause I'm trying to make it easy
My sons following my footsteps I can't never be misleaded
I tried to keep it cool but you wanna be mistreated
I don't understand the reasons
Why you acting like you need me?
Why you trying to make me feel like you going die if you don't see me?
That type of shit heal wounds to a nigga who been bleeding
From the bottom, nigga coming all the way up from the cement
Eight years old and fighting demons
Two years later I was scheming
Couldn't get no sleep but I was dreaming
Of the lights and all the screaming
And the bitches throwing panties at me sceady for no reason
I got tired of all the lies that they was feeding me
They was around me for no reason

Sometimes I feel like you going understand if I leave
Sometimes I close my eyes when it get hard for me to see
I know it sound backwards girl but I'm just being me
I can’t get you out my head I got to push you from my reach
Cause sometimes I might just take it way too far with no regrets
I seen way too many bodies bullets in they neck and chest
I was taught to shoot it first, ain’t trying to figure out what's next
I can’t let my mother be the one to lay me down to rest

I tried to keep it cool but you must wanna be mistreated
I don't understand the reasons
Why you acting like you need me?
Why you trying to make me feel like you going die if you don't see me?
Couldn't get no sleep but I was dreaming
Of the lights and all the screaming

Sometimes I feel like you going understand if I leave
Sometimes I close my eyes when it get hard for me to see
I know it sound backwards girl but I’m just being me
I can't get you out my head I got to push you from my reach