I Don't Believe

I'm such an asshole
god I'm such a stain
I just keep fucking up again and again
you crawled inside my mind
when you crawled into my bed
said everything I've ever longed to hear
so perfect, so alive,
once inside you sucked me dry
you used me up and left me here for dead
I crave it desperately, a cancer eating me
an addiction too intense to be denied worthless,
I'm a whore, crawling back for more
it's pathetic how I feed off this abuse
you told me that you love me and
I believed you loved me
but you swore that you loved me and I believed...
now I know it was a lie
I don't believe
I don't believe that I could be so stupid and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe that there is nothing, nothing left for me