The Party

So alive, no intention to stop
Down bad just to get back on top
Up still, just not so well
Where am I? Just can not tell
It's all good, 'cause i don't want to
I'm still alone, the fuck do I do?
By choice, just not mine
Still dying, but I'm fine
Still trying, full throttle
Ayrton Senna, every bottle
Always have been so uptight
Secrets hidden in plain sight
Felt so wrong when I was right
Felt like it, and I just might
Up or down, where do I go?
All these thoughts I cannot show
It don't matter, leave me be
Don't be silent, let me see
I just wish to understand
And I want the party not to end
But now it's over y'all are lame
Pictures, just without a frame
People, just without a name
It feels like we are all the same
Some dumb shit
That's it
So lit
Just one hit
Now upbeat
Too neat
Too much heat
Well tough shit!
Everybody's going when I'm coming to the party
And tho everybody's flowing
I don't want to see nobody
When the DJ's going darker music's flowing through my body
When the hits are going harder vision gets a little muddy
Muses flying through my head
There's inspiration everywhere
As the tension's building higher
I can feel it in the air
Now she tells me "come on baby"
And I swear I didn't care
But I went hard on her body
Now she wants me to be fair
Everybody moves, everybody's higher
My mouth is filled with liquid, but it's getting even dryer
All the people dance, all of us are sick
Wishing we could see each other, but the lights are bleak
Getting lost within each other
Finding all we need
Some are satisfied in vain of liquor shots and weed
See for me it's not so easy, so I'm heading for the door
But the urge to stay inside is keeping my feet to the floor
It don't matter, leave me be
Don't be silent, let me see
I just wish to understand
And I want the party not to end
But now it's over y'all are lame
Pictures, just without a frame
People, just without a name
It feels like we are all the same