Losing My Mind

It's time I show my artistry is really just a part of me
Simple as that it'll bleed from every artery
Always sharpening my skills like I'm carving meat
I give my life to this game full heartedly
When did freeing your mind become hard to achieve
Open you eyes you're not blind there's much more to be seen
Limousine in dreams I need the green like a fiend
Building a scheme I'm digging deep into your spleen
Week to week fuck I need another drink
Can't even think so don't expect me to blink
Every bar that I put in is intended to win
From my heart to the pen I've been fermented in sin
I'm a piece of shit friend I'll probably lose you in the end
Again and again does it really ever end
Every single day i feel like I'm losing my mind
Only second closer before I reach my demise
Nothing you can do will ever make you feel fine
It's in my brain, never tame, got me going insane
Till I hit the blunt, I'm on a hunt to get back on my game
My life is contempt, I'll never feel the same
Then I get the gas make a pass its time for a change
I just wanna change my life or maybe even yours
That's what's I'm picking up the mic to open up some of these doors
Try to play the game right but whose really keeping score
Win and lose a couple fights I been screaming to the lord
I'll feel bit better once I get this off my chest
The sickness and the death man this world's a fuckin mess
We need to do better cuz I'm really not impressed
I been troubled and ive struggled all my life I been depressed
Used to have the backup when you crack and snap the deck
Had the fattest flat ground used to keep em all in check
Used to pack the shows had em following your steps
Now you stack em up in bowls while you cash the smallest check
It helps with the bills but not part of the plan
stuck in my feels some I don't understand
You lost yourself you don't know the older man
Now the cards been delt and your caught without a plan