Turmoil

Trouble keep on coming and I keep on falling deeper
Jeepers creepers don't look into my peepers
You'll get lost in the hurt and the trials I've faced
Can't even face myself I need a little grace
My God, My God, Why have you forsaken me
I need deliverance I'm sitting waiting patiently
Ain't in a hurry, visions blurry from the tears I've cried
Try again the next day but have no sleep at night
You've delivered others from the same pain
But the history ain't repeating with me feel the shame
Sometimes I feel It's just a game
No relief when I call upon the name
Sitting here thinking why would you do this
You call me yours but I feel like I'm Judas
Problems are numerous, way too many to list
They don't stop coming and they built like Ray Lewis
The scary thing is is that I ain't got no where else to go
I gotta trust this God I've never seen before
It was him who put me in the womb
But this turmoil he made makes me long to be inside a tomb
i was doomed from the start, then I was set apart
Now I'm in parts and I can't tell my mouth from my heart
Lord I hope you here my cries for help
And you see me 'bout to fold from the cards I've been dealt
Don't be far away because distress is near
My biggest fear is that your love will never appear
Many bulls and lions surround me all at once
And they're all looking for an innocent soul to crush
I'm in the dust of death and I don't know how to act
I'm standing in the fire and my heart is made of wax
Stacks and stacks of pressure will attack
I can hear it coming, I'm just bracing for the impact
My strength is dried and my tongue sticks to my mouth
I'm in need of water, Lord I hope you hear me out
I say don't be too far but you keep on going
I pray calm the storm and the winds keep blowing
I can keep going but it does no good
I can keep on flowing but I think It's understood
Rescue my life from the sword aimed at my head
'Cause the bulls and the lions won't stop 'till I'm dead