Change and Change and Change and Change

You're totally ignoring me, she said
As she put on her shirt
I was lying on the bed
Concentrating on her skirt
And did you hear one word I said, she said
I don't know it's all a blur
I close my eyes

And we fell in love in a great big rush
Three years ago this June, I do recall
Playing arcade games with her
And wanting nothing at all
Just this silly, skinny girl who tended
To trip and fall on her lies

But then summer came
And we felt the strain
Of the damning things we said
All the summer rains like hurricanes
That flew around our heads
All the endless conversations, you know
Like the things you could have done alone
Instead, instead, instead, instead, instead

So I fucked it up like I always do
I was born to be alone
I don't even know if the words were true
But I screamed into the phone
All I know is everybody leaves
Or so it seems to me when I'm alone
Alone, alone, alone, alone

But I was younger then and stronger then
Somehow I can't explain
How these years can be so humbling
So strangely full of pain
Just how everyone and everything must
Change and change and change and change
And change and change and change

Just like that

'Cause sometimes I feel just like a train
That's running off the tracks
And sometimes I think I've said too many
Things I can't take back
And sometimes it seems like everything
I do is just a waste
In fact, that's it
I think, oh wait, I'm sure

But I'm trying every morning that I wake
To stand up straight
And to always tell the truth
And give back more than I take
And to be kind and pure
Less fucking scared of everything
I just can't take
Much more of this, I'm sure