This Is Not

I try to make myself fit inside your world
My time's been spent on being the right girl
How far away I am from where I need to be
I'm so tired of this useless fantasy

Oh this is not what I need to be
Oh this is not what you mean to me

I'm not losing hope I'm not laying blame
I know we both want love
We both feel the same
I'm moving forward to where I need to be
My life is spinning in this mystery

I tried to be so perfect