39 (feat. Dan Torres)

I'm super sentimental, it really chokes me up
It hasn't hit me yet that all my fam is growing up
I wanna stay a kid forever, all my bro's and such
Instead I'm living this reality and broke as fuck

My dream ain't close enough, God work your magic faster
I hope you're hearing this 'cause I don't wanna ask the pastor
I'm down for getting plastered, but that is not the answer
So I've been antisocial, been ghosting out like Casper

I fuck around a lot, I gotta stop or I won't pop
Spending my last 50 bucks on vodka's and three dollar shots
I'm not as hot as I was when I first started ET
And that's the truth, I'm tryna balance more than just music

I can't afford to be useless, wasn't born to be a nuisance
Time is flying like eagles, I'll spread my wings while you snoozing
They taking naps on your homie, face the facts or get over it
Hopefully they just wake up and notice, I need my moment

We living in a world that we tend to make up
It's nothing but a fantasy until you wake up
I feel like I'm just lying to myself, lying to myself (Yeah)
'Cause I just cross the line like I'm playing off sides
Do it how I want and I'ma do it til I die
I feel like I'm just lying to myself, but it's real to me, it's real to me (Yeah)

Crowd screams louder as I step up on the stage
Sometimes I wish the younger me could see what I became
But would he be ashamed? Or would he be enraged?
Or would he be concerned that I've held onto so much pain?

I guess I'll never change, I've got myself to blame
They say that every artist is a little bit insane
So somebody check my brain, I feel a bit deranged
'Cause all I seem to think about is money, cars and fame

Somebody crack a bottle, sit back, I'll light a J
Tonight we're gonna party like the 8th Ave days
Groupies all around us, thinking it's a game
She gon' mess around and have me pulling on her braids

They said we'd never make it, they labeled us as strange
But now we making K's and they make minimum wage
And life is way too short to sit around and just behave
I'm here and here to stay, it's La Familia to my grave (Bitch)

We living in a world that we tend to make up
It's nothing but a fantasy until you wake up
I feel like I'm just lying to myself, lying to myself (Yeah)
'Cause I just cross the line like I'm playing off sides
Do it how I want and I'ma do it til I die
I feel like I'm just lying to myself, but it's real to me, it's real to me (Yeah)

We living in a world that we tend to make up
It's nothing but a fantasy until you wake up
I feel like I'm just lying to myself, lying to myself (Yeah)
'Cause I just cross the line like I'm playing off sides
Do it how I want and I'ma do it til I die
I feel like I'm just lying to myself, but it's real to me, it's real to me (Yeah)