Mixing up these days

[Verse]
Those are years of pain that you see rollin’ down my face
All of my mistakes, that I can’t erase
I wanna end it all but I don’t have what it takes
When I’m too close, I back out and pump the brakes
I don’t trust anyone cuz most of y’all are fakes
I already learnt my lesson fuckin’ with y’all snakes
I don’t go to sleep, I’m always mixin’ up the days
In a world of my own, outer space
I’m a strange person, no one really know my place
People look at me like I’m just some sort of disgrace
That’s a sick feelin’ that I can’t learn to embrace
That’s just too heavy, I can’t carry all that weight
Everyday, I’m livin’ with these feelings that I hate
I just want them all to go away, yeah I can’t wait
Y’all can’t understand me, that’s because y’all can’t relate
It’s like I’m dead inside like I’m already in the grave
I’m a lost cause, far too gone to be saved
And I’m not strong, I’m too weak to be brave
My life’s a nightmare, it’s impossible to dream chase
I don’t wanna be here, X me out the maze