Chemical Counterpart

It's just a week and I could change my ways
I've been taking these pills for all my days
But nothing changes if you can't take a leap of faith
It's just a couple days, it's just a couple days
And I can hold myself accountable
But this chemical imbalance makes me vulnerable and I'm scared
So used to feeling cold that when the warmth hits it's too much to control but like I
Said
It's just a couple more days, clear head was a lie, too many thoughts in my brain
Overwhelmed but I still need to push on
Press repeat on that familiar song, it gives me hope it won't be long

And that I'm not alone
No I'm not alone anymore

I got so used to the feeling of numb
That whеn my feelings rush in I wanna cry out to someone pleasе
The pills are calling my name and if you tell me I should take ‘em I'll have someone
Else to blame

Oh no I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gonna take ‘em
No I'm not gonna let myself down anymore
And it'll take all that's in me
Climb mountains and part the sea
Just to make it to the shore where I'll find
Some peace within my mind
Some peace within my mind

Now it's only day two and I just want to sleep
My hands are shaking and I feel so weak I forgot what it's like to be this sober
How many hours till this week is over?

I lost my heart
To a chemical counterpart
Let's restart

Oh no I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gonna take ‘em
No I'm not gonna let myself down anymore
And it'll take all that's in me
Climb mountains and part the sea
Just to make it to the shore where I'll find
Some peace within my mind

Five days clean, I never thought it could have been
But I'm started to feel myself again, I know it's not the end but I'm proud
Of everything I've felt, I won't play the hand I'm dealt anymore
I'll pick myself up off the floor and move on, I'll hold on

Oh no I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gonna take ‘em
No I'm not gonna let myself down anymore
And it'll take all that's in me
Climb mountains and part the sea
Just to make it to the shore where I'll find
Some peace within my mind