Goodbye. (Suicide Song)

It's a plague and i caught it if it's an item in a store
I bought it its a war and i fought it but i lost it just the same

Its my skin but i hate it anxieties game i played depressions grip
It isnt fading but I'm fading fading away

My grades are dropping my friends aren't stopping
No matter what i say they say drink it smoke it feel it burn it sweetly
Let it rule you and take your problems away and that's why i'm inclined to say goodbye

Goodbye to all the meaningless nights goodbye to mom
Always telling me to leave her sight goodbye to all the one's who said
I'm not the right size goodbye to sitting alone in a crowded lunchroom
Goodbye to never being asked to go to prom goodbye
To never getting a message except ones to give
To my sister goodbye world don't miss me when I'm gone

It's a sickness, and i have it it's a curse and I'm bound to it it's the worst
I can't outrun it its in my stomach every day

It's my life but i hate it my best friend's a knife and i detest it
We spend time at night i don't get jaded but none of it's faded faded away

My desires are hidden its my secret addiction to pills and alcohol
And tho its dark and unattractive sometimes the only thing
I'm after getting so high that i fall Now I'll tell you why I have to say goodbye

Cuz most nights I get so drunk I start to cry
Because I lack the hope that I need to survive
My joy is fading not in steps but in strides
They always ask me how I'm doing and I always lie
No one understands this pain i have inside leave me alone
I know you don't need me I burden everyone around me
Let me die but let me say goodbye

It's a plague and i caught it it's an item in a store
I bought it it's a war and i fought it but i lost it just the same