Even Tho Its Hard

I swear i'm just sitting back thinkin'
About everything in life
No matter how good I done by people
It never failed, man you know I'm human
I always come back around
Totally the opposite but I'm good though

Lotta things been in my head
Days I barely leave my bed
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it's hard
So much pain, I cannot rest
All this time it got me stressed
I don't win, I do my best
Even though it's hard

Lately, I been dealing with pain
I'd rather fight
Like why the fuck I'm stuck in
The night searching for light
Damn, my niggas off in the sky
Without a flight
All the things they left me to fear
It wasn't right
Hella niggas still in the cell
Send 'em a kite
Me, I'd rather hit 'em with flicks
I hate to write turn my back on many of
Mine? I ain't the type
That's why the couple of 'em who left
I hold 'em tight
I feel I need a different direction
No distillation
But we fuck 'em, that's restoration
Some people that I love tryna
Stop me from elevation
Right or wrong, I still keep it solid
No hesitation me, I'm in the same
Location where nothin' promised
Where they say you ain't
Designed to see thirty, just bein' honest

Just hope they got to see when it happened

Lotta things been in my head
Days I barely leave my bed
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it's hard
So much pain, I cannot rest
All this time it got me stressed
I don't win, I do my best
Even though it's hard

They told me keep my faith while I'm losing
And it'll pass praying
Hard to see one day you'll
Be first when always last
I swear it's like your life
Only relevant when it's cash
Be careful who you give dedication
Just know you at somebody disposable
Like you was trash
No with me controlling these motions
I only spaz too many niggas singin' the
Blues right over jazz
Speakin' different, most of live it
A different tune
Not knowing things, we made it, our mama
We would be doomed
My children ask me "Will it get
Better?" I tell 'em "Soon"
I'm equal to the greats but
I'm guessing it wouldn't
Even if I never get noticed, I couldn't trip
I know, keep on planning, I couldn't slip
Anyone who listen, I gotta dip
Regardless, tell 'em "Look at me now"
I got 'em Clip

Lotta things been in my head (My head)
Days I barely leave my bed (My bed)
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it's hard (It's hard)
So much pain, I cannot rest (I can't rest)
All this time it got me stressed (Stressed)
I don't win, I do my best (My best)
Even though it's hard

Even my bed
It's so hard i can't rest
It's stress my best