Till The Day I Drop

I'm sick of losing family
Everytime I blink my eyes
And at the rate that it's going
Fell like I need to stay inside
Cause I don't wanna be the next nigga
To fall in a coffin
Lord knows everybody, that I love die often
Or wind up in the cage
And I don't seem to understand
It ain't nothing but a few of us left
I can count on my hand
If I tried to make a song
For everyone that I lost
I'd prolly have a triple cd
In my deck when I floss
And that's a damn shame
People entertained by pain
I think I'm only selling records
Cause I'm going through it mayn
I received a phone call
From my old man today he was going crazy
Cause his older sister passed away
And in my mind
I think she looking down smiling away
But still it hurt
I'm writing this and it ain't
Even been a day
At least I got to giver her a kiss
And told her I love her hey Christina
Promise it'll never be another damn

I'ma keep thugging, till the day I drop
Cause it feel like I'm losing
Everything I got
On my knees asking God, is it ever gon stop
But he don't answer me back
I hope he help me out

To tell the truth I'm never being happy
Now-a days in my everyday living
Will make a nigga wanna blaze
I don't smoke
So I'm running reality head on
All the pressure and pain
Coming to me is dead wrong
Only time I get to smile
Is when I see my lil' boy
If he only knew I'm riding down, for my boy
I ain't got too many friends
So I'm riding by myself
Your own kin'll try to do you
When on a mission for wealth i was told
Every person get a day of they own
I guess they skipped over mine
I been in line for too long
Why they won't leave me alone
I just wanna have a life
I'm sick of living in the dark
Tripping searching for the light
I'm a soldier so I fight
Till I'm running out of breath
And I ain't running from the devil
It's war until the death
Dear Lord help me out
I think you missing all my calls
My back against the wall
And I ain't got no time to fall at all

It ain't no mo' telling me
That it's gonna be ok i watched the judge
Try to throw my roll dog life away
It's safe to say
Any day I'ma be checking in
With everything that I'm facing
They gotta let me in
I only rap about the struggle
Cause it's all that I know
I'm assuming people hate me
Because it's all that they show
I never asked to be a rapper
I was stuck with it and fuck this shit
Cause I don't fell I'm having luck with it
And it seem like I'm really tripping
Sometimes and I really want
Is the Lord to show me a sign
Cause everything been rough
When it's coming to me and mine
Since it's raining everyday
I'll be praying the sun'll shine
But it don't
And on the real I don't feel that it will
I'm the last one left
Until I end up getting killed
I wanna turn away
But still I know that it's real
And deep inside I pray, that
The Lord'll be my shield
My pain is for real