IDFWU

When I talk to other people about you I cry every time
Never been in love before, but I think that this is what it feels like
Emotional word vomit
Crying when you're not around
It's like I base my mood off how you feel about me that day
I read through our old messages like they're some entertaining book
God I love that kid so much
Oh how fucking stupid I look
Giving you a chance
You're no different than the last
I should've learned my lesson
Boys like you come around way too often
I'm so conflicted
I'm crying
but you're different
I say that every time
You've got it so twisted
There's no way I deserve this
Some days I swear you want me too
But most days I don't fuck with you
Everyone knows that I'd do anything for you
They tease me about it 'cuz we all know it's true
I wish that you still tried
But I'll learn how to survive
I'll just get hotter I won't need you any longer
I'm so conflicted
I'm crying
but you're different
I say that every time
You've got it so twisted
There's no way I deserve this
Some days I swear you want me too
But most days I don't fuck with you
Maybe I need to stop making you an angel in my mind
Maybe I still love you but a week from now I'll be just fine
Maybe I'm obsessed with a version of you that doesn't exist
Maybe you didn't mean it when you begged and begged me for a kiss
Maybe you're just different than I thought you were
Maybe I need to stop comparing myself to her
Maybe I need to stop excusing your behavior to my friends
Maybe I need to let myself get fucking hurt again
Ew
I'm so conflicted
I'm crying but you're different
I say that every time
You've got it so twisted
There's no way I deserve this
Some days I swear you want me too
But most days I don't fuck with you